Katie is Coming!!

I am so happy that Katie is coming to visit tomorrow. We (I) am all in a tizzy to get things ready for Katie's arrival. Everything is sort of "out of sorts" around here with all the business work that has been going on. AND my babysitter quit last Tuesday, so I have been trying to watch both girls, work, and run a house all alone b/c Jarred has worked until at least 8:30pm every night the past 2 weeks (even Sat/Sun). I finally put down my foot yesterday and told him, "These girls are both our responsibility, we both have to work, we both have to have a home to live in, we both have decided to put the "babysitter money" back into the business for the next 3 months, so we both will have to live with the consequences. He has decided that he will come pick up Lucie everyday for at least 2 hours or be able to get home by 7pm.

I just cannot be everything and all things to everybody in this house. I told Jarred I did not quit my job to become a stay at home mom/housekeeper AND run our business. By the end of the day, I feel like Gumby, with someone or some task pulling at my legs/arms (usually literally) trying to get me to do something. All day is a fight. I boomerang from one job to the next with no moment of clarity in between. I have to fight to eat ANY food, so I end up eating all day, b/c I can never sit down for a full meal without someone crying or needing something. I have to fight to go to the bathroom, and I gave up going alone a long time ago. Every little thing all day is done with a little "tick tock" in the back of my head reminding me that I had best hurry up or someone/something is going to happen and it will be left half done. I HATE half done, it is worse than not done at all. Then I fall in the "comfort trap" where things have been quiet for more than 5 mntues and I actually start making a list of what I will do next. What a downer! I dont know why I do it to myself. Besides, usually the 5 mintues of quiet is b/c someone (Lucie) is up to no good. Like playing with my make up in my bed or eating cinnamon roll icing in her little kitchen in her room. That is like a double wammy, b/c then I am a bad SAHM b/c I was working and "now look what you have done", AND I couldnt finish my task at hand. and there is always a task at hand.........

SO, yes, I am so happy Katie is coming, but I need to clean out my car, clean up the toys out of MY office (yes, dont other women who run million dollar companies have princess panties and wooden blocks on the floors of their office), finish folding clothes, clean up 'goldfish' (the crackers, THANK GOD) off the couch, go to the store, have a meeting with Jarred, have a meeting with a loan officer, etc etc etc, and of course it all must be done--------during nap time. HA!

BTW: Lucie has poison ivy. Who ever said being a mother was boring?